I might have picked up two more jobs today. My business is in the shitter. That would make 4 jobs, 1 more that I pick up a couple of times a year, and school. I still feel like I’ll never get my head above water. Probably going to be couch surfing for a couple of months until I find a stable roommate. At least I have a suitable place to stay on weekends when I have my son and friends that will let me crash and shower even if it’s annoying. Will probably have to give my dog back to the women that I got him from. I miss my kid so much and berate myself daily for not having what it takes to be the mom that he deserves. Everything sucks, but I’ll never stop trying. The good news is, that through everything the last year has been and all of the shit, I finally have people I can trust and who I know love me. I have found strength and will and motivation to exist. I have learned so fucking much.