Tonight starts that A&E Intervention Special & hopefully watching and seeing a light shine on it will give me closure.
I've been accused of being miserable & self loathing & I'm really not completely, I did that for 10 years with booze. I'm really broken because our area is sick & has been, & it disguises its problems & pain with roasting.
BUT EVERYONE IS DYING.
PLEASE if you're struggling you have to just get used to a milder form of medicating yourself. You have to get comfortable with being uncomfortable.
You have to decide to live or get the fuck out of the way