Nobody has conversations anymore because you post 10 times in a row about incoherent nonsense. Your insanity combined with brickhouse's ambivalence have killed this website completely.
I dont particularly care, but you should know that you are an internet pariah and should talk to people who actually care about you. I'm not even saying this in a cruel way. You need help and should speak to friends, family or professionals. Strangers like me just want you to fuck off.